Deflating

... from major stess, slight panic, a sugar high, and disappointment. Oh well, can't win 'em all I guess. :/

Major stress of work and life in general. Trying my damnedest not to get myself fired by losing my temper or tongue.

Slight panic at work seeing Linda come in today with blue-ish ears and fingertips and an overall pasty look. But thankfully, we made her go get it looked at during lunch and she came back later that afternoon with news that it was the Tetracycline she was on (and is immediately not anymore btw) and not due to any blood circulation issues. Phew. Crisis averted. Now it's gonna take like a year for her to be back to normal. Sheesh.

I decided I needed Jamba Juice at lunch today, and I got the Power sized one, which is HUGE and I shouldn't have, but I did, and now i'm coming down from that huge fricken sugar high I didn't realize it gave me. hahahah

Oh. The disappointment... well, the mister I'm crushing on is no longer single. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. He seems pretty amazing. So that's that. Whatever hope I thought I had, is gone up in smoke. I've even worn eye make up more lately, excited at the prospects of dating someone I like. Pssh. I should've known better than to get my hopes up so high. Too late now. And now I almost dread seeing him at the end of the month EVEN MORE than when I thought he was still available. I just wanna curl up in a ball. I don't wanna cry, but I want to have a pity party. I was sorta looking forward to the Valentine sleepover but now I'm a bit more bummed to once again be the only single lady present. I'm so sick of hanging out with couples.

By the way, I'm sticking by my belief that we are not individually half a person that finds another half to make ourselves whole, but two whole people that come together to be a whole lot more. I AM NOT HALF A PERSON.