To message or not to message... this is the question I've been mulling over in my head. Sam's mom Maggie came into the office again today. She's such a sweet lady! I love her! So anyhow, Sam is a hottie and a return missionary and seems to come from an awesome family and I would LOVE to get to know him better. Here's my dilemma. Well, you know, other than the facts that I'm shy, have little real confidence, and no matter the situation I wouldn't know what to do or say--- he's been recently engaged and it was broken off as per issues with her family. How the heck do I begin saying "hey baby what's up?" to someone I've only seen like three times, who's recently gone through an engagement that went south, and who is a patient at my work where I would have to eventually face him again???
(on that note, I'm still feeling very guilty about Martin. I really should call him back and apologise. For goodness sake, I don't want him to avoid the dentist just cuz it might be awkward, though at the same time I'm glad he might be cuz it WILL be awkward.... *le sigh*)
So what do i do? Do I message Sam on facebook or not? Will I just seem like some random creeper? I've been mulling it over all day. I mean, I want to. I just don't see how it can work out.
To share something I wouldn't normally share, I daydream sometimes. And on my ride home today I was happily daydreaming of Sam and I dating for a couple months and then him call ahead and arrange for me to have the day off at Segura's so he could surprise me and take me to Disneyland.
OOoooooookay, so enough rambling. Basically, I'm probably not gonna gather up enough courage to even say hello, ultimately. I'm just not a risk-taker by nature. :( Which is probably why I'm still very much alone.
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