SINCE FREAKIN WHEN?!?!?!?!
...well, it isn't exactly new, but it seems like they are crawling all over me lately. so boys, buzz off, please...
Any and all of my close friends know I've had my fair share of first dates and I'm just HIGHLY unable to cope with the idea of a second date, yet alone a relationship. And honestly, even the idea of a first date is paralyzing. I'm normally fine if it turns into a date without me knowing, but when I know before-hand, I freak out sooner. I'm beginning to wonder if there isn't something more seriously wrong with me--like a phobia. Either that or I'm just your run of the mill ***** who's standards are too high to be humanly possible.
I break hearts. Maybe I should start carrying around a warning sign? Stop it before it becomes anything past a crush, whether it's a serious crush that has lasted for a long time or one that is sparked when the guy first meets me. I'm even more cruel when you consider that I let them have the first date before breaking the little bubble of happiness and hope they've dreamed up. And most of the guys are SUCH GREAT and WONDERFUL guys that they understand and leave me be, but they stay my friends. In this, I understand I am truely blessed.
Now, the guys in particular that are pushing me lately are all GREAT guys. Yes, they are. Any girl would be lucky to have them. But it's not me, okay? Can I just be alone with my fictional crushes for a while longer? I can't and don't want to deal with this real world stuff.
I CAN'T DEAL WITH IT! Seriously. Please. You have no idea what all this does to me and I have plenty of other things to worry about that are a priority.
...I didn't want to post any of this here, but there is no where else to run this time, and if the guys in pursuit of me right now are smart enough, they've already found where I linked to this blog a while ago and have read this. Sorry guys, but I am one of the most complicated, frustrating, and terrible girls you will ever try to go out with--and I can almost promise you it won't work out. Save yourself some heartache and back off a bit, please. Thanks.
One other note: if I have misinterrupted any of these guys, that is probably due to the fact that at least one of them has pretty much made his intentions clear so now I just assume the attitudes of the others are heading in the same direction. So I'm sorry. Also, if you are reading this, don't assume it's you, you are most likely wrong.
"Alejandro, just let me go..."
Well, that was depressing.
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BOO!!! You know the question is: Is it better that guys can fall for you and you don't want them OR is it better that you want guys and they don't want you? At least you attract guys. That's a plus. Some gals can't even get a guy to look their way. So that's a blessing.
ReplyDeleteBeth....this isn't going to be the last time a guy wants to get with you or has a crush on you. Face it, you are awesome. You can't deny that. So, you just have to get used to it bestie. And maybe one day you'll get a guy who likes you that you actually want to be with. Or maybe all this says that YOU need to put the moves on the guy of your choosing since the guys who choose you aren't to your liking. But, that means actually going out on a limb and trying to get a guy.....which I hate to tell you this, but you will probably get a guy when you find one you want to go after.....why? Because you are awesome. :D
So, maybe it's time you turn things around by deciding that the next guy you see or know that YOU are even a bit interested in, you show him you are interested and see if he responds....I'm sure he will, because you are a guy magnet. The trick is to use the system to your advantage bestie. The system is that guys are attracted to you because you are awesome.....so find a guy you like and be your awesome self and magic....they are yours. ::wink:: Figure out the systems of things in life and make them work for you bestie.
And.....you have a best friend who has a great insight to the world of men....so you should probably come to me and we can have girl talk with me giving you a man's perspective. Plus, you know I;m good at making sense of things and knowing how you work and making you smile....so in the very least I'll make you smile. :P