I've had a lot of extra time this summer. Extra time that it doens't seem like I have, and yet when I go to bed each night I can't help but think about all the time I wasted that day. I really hate feeling like this and I'm gonna try to motivate myself more and DO stuff. There really is plenty that needs done, so there is no excuse to find myself sitting on the couch and losing time on the internet while munching when I can be doing yardwork or cleaning or mopping or washing the car or something... you know, I should start cross-stitching some more. Christmas is coming up fast and I have a whole list of people I would love to give a small cross-stitch and a card to.
I'm almost sorry I never got around to making a summer to-do list. I mean, I sorta have a list in my head anyhow, but by having it written/saved somewhere that I can refer to is a bit, uh--like having deadlines, only not? It's like... my own personal guilt-trip. It shames me into getting stuff crossed off if I start slacking. XD
On a low note: my right shoulder is an absolute nightmare. :(
And I am bummed that none of the attempts to hang out with my girls lately have worked out. Currently, I'm gonna start looking for another more local office to work for the rest of the week. It'll totally kill my free time, but my family and I need the money. My poor daddy has been working his butt off.
And more light-heartedly: it was great to be able to talk to my bestie last night and I'm looking forward to finally getting out to Riverside to hang with the gang again. I'll have to leave early, as per usual, but I hope we'll have an awesome afternoon! My self-esteem issues have been on a bit of an up-slope though. I mean, I have worn shorts in public and around people I know (and it isn't even hot like it usually is for a socal summer). I've been hanging out with and helping out my friend Izzy and it is amazing the aura she has! Everywhere we go, people are so nice! It makes me feel better about humanity as a whole.
Yeah, it's definitely "perspective" that is fickle.
Yea, I agree. It is ALL about perspective bestie. I get down alot because I feel like I waste my time and am not productive....but I have been really stressed and worked on the house alot and things.....so it's probably good I am being a bum and relaxing because I don't want to put myself into a nervous or mental breakdown. There is LOTS for me to do....but honestly it doesn't seem like I am going to be working alot.....so it's not like I don't have time to sit on my ass AND do things. :P I figure it'll all get done....no need to rush and there is not really a deadline. So, no worries....a little bit at a time is still progress enough. :D
ReplyDeleteAww, bummer about your shoulder!! You should try icy/hot....or a heat pad...or something....I think it's a muscle thing maybe? Since your shoulders are jacked up, the muscles get overworked and stressed which adds more pain.....so helping the muscles relax could be a good thing.
YAY!!! Talking to bestie!!! :D Damn straight your self esteem issues have been on the up slope.....they better be ::shakes fist:: hehe, I've been trying to help with that stuff. Lol, hell you made that guy at the beach who was trying to ask for the lighter stutter and fall ALL over himself as soon as he looked at you. :P You can't deny that you are hot stuff bestie....making guys fall all over themselves and look stupid....it's a gift you should be proud of. He was happy I came up and saved him from continued embarrassment. :P He couldn't even look at you after I started talking to him except to check you out by glancing at you. :P
So, keep your perspective on the right track and stay positive. It's healthier and feels better. ;)